Best of friends for years closer than you can imagine Talk to each other daily I don’t know just when it happened? If only I could tell you how I feel inside (Oh girl you got me) Losin’ sleep, I’m thinkin’ Can’t imagine how it feels to see you ridin’ around with the wrong guy Tell me how do I take his place?
You already know that I’m capable Can’t you see who’s been there all along? And I know I can’t be wrong, oh tell me
Why… did I have to fall in love with you? (¿Cómo me haces falta tú?) When I know without you I can’t function no more And you,.. you’ll never look at me the same You know it’s really drivin’ me insane When I know without you I can’t function (¿Cómo me haces falta tú?)
Hardest thing about this confession is I just might ruin what we have I don’t wanna lose what we got But it’s a chance I’ll have to take, ho… Don’t wanna spend my whole life wonderin’ what it feels like Bein’ there beside you and kissin’ on you all night See I been makin’ a mistake ho, no-oh…
You already know that I’m capable Can’t you see who’s been there all along? And I know I can’t be wrong, so tell me
Why… did I have to fall in love with you? (¿Cómo me haces falta tú?) When I know without you I can’t function no more And you,.. you’ll never look at me the same You know it’s really drivin’ me insane When I know without you I can’t function no more
Ain’t easy lovin’ you when you’re lovin’ him There’s no words that can’t describe (Words that can’t describe) How it leaves me empty inside (How it leaves me so empty inside) When all I want is you… (Why… did I have to fall in love with you?) Oh whoa, whoa yeah… (Why… did I have to fall in love with you?) You’ll never look at me the same
Why… did I have to fall in love with you? (¿Cómo me haces falta tú?) (It’s drivin’ me insane…) When I know without you I can’t function no more (Without you I can’t function no more) And you,.. you’ll never look at me the same (How I need you right now) You know it’s really drivin’ me insane (Drivin’ myself insane) When I know without you I can’t function (I’m drivin’ myself insane) No more
(Ooh) I need you (¿Cómo me haces falta tú?) I want you Can’t you see this is killin’ me… ? (I’m drivin’ myself insane) (Ooh) (¿Cómo me haces falta tú?) Ho… (I’m drivin’ myself insane) (Ooh) (¿Cómo me haces falta tú?) (I’m drivin’ myself insane) (¿Cómo me haces falta tú?)
Here I go again. I question myself and him so much. Why can’t I be happy that I might have found myself a good one. Or maybe I found someone new to hurt me. Everyday a million questions run through my mind and all my thoughts all lead back to me thinking of him. Even if it’s the doubts, or if it’s that cute smirk he gives me when I catch him looking at me at work. What is it about him that makes me want to let him in? Maybe he does mean what he says. Then again, I told myself I won’t let any guy get to me so all I can do is think of the pros and cons and reasons why to keep it strictly friends. The more we text, the more we talk, the more I start to soften up. There are times where I thought maybe I could take that chance one more time but those few things hold me back from giving in. When I start to doubt him, I think of how he and I started even talking and somewhat have relief and reassurance. That little hope in him. It’s funny how one look at each other gave me that good feeling about everything. That one smirk that could make me laugh and smile back. I have a good feeling and I shouldn’t find reasons to make it otherwise. I should just let things happen on its own. If things are meant to be then it will be<3
"I don't want to be just another girl, I want to be different. I want to be the girl that makes you think, challenges you, but loves you at the exact same time. I want to be the girl you can't get out of your mind, and when you think of me, I want to be the girl that makes all your problems disappear knowing that you don't have to face them alone."
Where to begin. What to think. Hmmm, anywho work is always a place where I have fun and not have to think about difficult situations in my life. I could always count on my friends to come out there and make my day fun. Haha I basically spent my day playing VC with them and just chilling around. Another thing made my day but let’s leave it at that :D
Am I scared of love? Or scared of starting over? Maybe it’s just the idea of getting hurt frightens me the most. I think going through a heart break once was bad enough but it’s the fact that I never believed in hearts breaking. I never thought I’d be in that position where my heart felt shattered. Again there’s a first for everything. After that, I told myself never again will I let myself fall. Now I keep thinking and thinking what if all this will lead to something more than I expect. What if I get hurt again? Again I think I over think things, while others say I should take chances. I hate taking that chance of being vulnerable to someone new. I don’t want to give someone the ability to hurt me again. A part of me has a good feeling about you but the other side questions it. What if you’re another player, what if you’re just playing games. For now, I know it’s best to keep my distant and to not let my guard down. I built my wall high so let’s see how you’re able to break through.
You’re pathetic. Do you think I’m that stupid to believe the bullshit that comes out your mouth like “I love you”. I’m pretty sure you tell every other girl you miss em and love em by now so don’t come crawling back to me saying the same shit. I see right through your fakeness. Fuck off already, you probably only crawl back to me or text me when you can’t get the other chicks you want cause I know for a fact you’re trying to get with other girls. You’re just a fake person who will never change or get his shit straight cause not even you can play your own game right. Stupidass. Ain’t slick about shit. You hate to see me happy, why is that? Cause I’m happy without yo ass? Yeah that’s it, it’s cause you can’t see me happy with other people or more like guys. Thats the only reason why you bother to come back or text me because you know I’m doing better without you. I was doing good before you came and now I’ll be just fine. When I used to cry for you and all that, you didn’t much care, you didn’t text me as much or tell me alll this shit but now that I’m not crying over you no more, you wanna find a way back into my life. Boy you tripping, so move around. I warned you in the beginning to not fuck me over, I told you I’d do you twice as bad but in the end, I chose to be the better person and let it go. I knew I’d be better without you and I’ll be happy while you regret your choices. You’re probably nodding your head like wtf and all this shit bout what I wrote but idc, read, learn it, memorize it. I’m over you, I’m over it, I’m over us, so move on and GTFO my life.
“You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.”—Bob Marley | Submitted by: themeanderingbs (via quote-book)
I should be doing homework but damn distractions. I hate chemistry so much! Anywho, I’ma just get this off my mind before I forget again.
I BELONG TO NO NIGGA, kay?! So people stop saying Oh I’m his girl, my girl, their girl. I’m not dating, in a relationship, or being anything with anyone. I’m single and I’m by myself. I hate when people say I’m this boy’s just cause I’m with them a lot. That doesn’t mean I’m his girlfriend or he’s my boyfriend. If i say we aren’t together than we aren’t so don’t say I’m with him okay? I’m not a thing or object to belong to someone. I’m human, I’m my ownself and I don’t belong to anyone. I hate being claimed for or some shit because I’m not something you can call on. I also hate the fact that some guys don’t talk to me just cause their homeboy talks to me too and says I’m “his”. Wtf? We’re just friends so why are you making all these assumptions or people just be like ohh man I don’t want to get BLANK mad cause you’re with him. WTF. I’M WITH NO ONE. it just really annoys me that they assume that shit when I tell them no they’re just friends. Do they not understand I want no relationship or boyfriend? Do they not get I’m just friends with people? Nothing more, I’m friends with everyone so don’t be saying I’m just one person’s girl cause point is. I’m no niggas girl.
I learn everything the hard way. Life, love, friendships. It’s like I get screwed over for everything. Love was a bitch and with that I never trusted a nigga again. Now friendships are being torn apart for misunderstanding matters and a trust bond that was broken from the beginning. I don’t know who my real friends are. I don’t know who my friends are. Everyone just puts on a front and tells you what you want to hear. But behind closed doors, and unheard ears, they say the most unthinkable things. Everyone at some point talks bad about someone. Not everyone is a goodie twoshoe(sp?) I can’t trust anyone or anything people tell me anymore. It’s just lies, after bullshit, after haters. I can only keep my head up and look past it all. I came into this world alone and that’s how I’ll leave it.
Life’s been a roller coaster. I’ve had my ups and downs day but lately, it just keeps going down and down. I was running and everything flashed in my mind. Friendships being questioned. People who I so called my friends. But who’s a friend to me? Or who’s just an acquaintances. I think everyone is an acquaintance now. No such things as a friend cause no matter who hard you try to keep em around, something fucks it up. I won’t try no more. I won’t put effort into something or someone that won’t do the same for me. Maybe I’m the one to blame for broken friendships but before you point fingers think it over and see it took more than one person. I’m done with drama and all the bs along with it. I’m tired of getting the fingres pointed at, I’m tired of being accused for shit I didn’t do. People need to hop off my clit because they riding it too hard. Shit. Fuck that shit man.
I’m afraid to let anyone in again. To let any guy in. I can’t see myself with anyone right now. It’s just hard to let go of the past and just start over with someone. I hate to start over, getting to know em, finding out their past, their mistakes, their actions. Just getting to know someone all over. It’d be nice to have a fresh start but I’m scared of making that mistake of letting someone new in and in the end I get played or made another bad judgment. People say take chances but why take the chance of being hurt again? Starting over or meeting someone new also makes it possible for you to be vulnerable and attached and if things don’t work out then again you’re hurt. Maybe im over thinking things but I rather protect myself then let another nigga hurt me. My pieces are still scattered out..
Its a big big world Its easy to get lost in it You’ve always been my girl And i’m not ready to call it quits
We make the sun shine in the moonlight We can make the gray clouds into blue skies I know its hard But baby believe me That we can go
Nowhere but up From here My dear Baby we can go nowhere but up Tell me what got to fear We can take it to the sky past the moon through the galaxy As long as you’re with me Honestly (honestly) with the strength of our love We can go nowhere but up
Its a big big world And i’m gonna show you all of it I’m gonna lish you with pearls From every ocean That we’re swimmin in
We make the sun shine in the moonlight We can make the gray clouds into blue skies I know its hard But baby believe me That we can go
Justin Bieber Up lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com.com/justin-bieber-up-lyrics.html Nowhere but up From here My dear Baby we can go nowhere but up Tell me what got to fear We can take it to the sky past the moon through the galaxy As long as you’re with me Honestly (honestly) with the strength of our love We can go nowhere but up
Baby we were underground We are on the surface now We are gonna make it girl I promise If you believe in love And you believe in us We can go nowhere but up
Baby we can go Nowhere but up From here My dear Baby we can go nowhere but up Tell me what we got to fear We can take it to the sky past the moon through the galaxy As long as you’re with me Honestly (honestly) with the strength of our love We can go nowhere but up
Friday - Mmm School field trip. It was boring at first because we sat around but then we went to the zoo and looked at animals. Haha then ate and was gonna go back to the zoo but boy were we lazy. We headed to the hill of Herman Park and laid around until they pulled out water guns again. I took Anthony’s and got em wet. Sandy and I ran away with it so they wouldnt get us back haha. Later we came out and they decided to go to the mini water park so as we walked I kept spraying em randomly haha. In the end they got me back, carrying me under the water sprinkler. Later I went home and changed to go bowling with Henry and Vee! I won the first two games! Woott :D Third i was losing but doesn’t matterrr. I still had fun and won whatever I wanttted. After that we went to Taphouse and just chilled. Jason dropped by again and just chilled with us. Went home and did homework til 1 in the morningg, fml haha but at least I wouldnt have to worry about it the rest of the weekend.
Saturday - Morning, I went to pick up Sandy so we could go the car wash thing at school but it was pouring outside so we said that fuck and just went to Galleria so she could return her shitt and eat. Then had to rush to get her home and make it back to go to work. Got to work and later Jason D. and Dung came out to Teahouse to chill with us, Ivy me and Thien were working so we got out cards and played VC. Then Hieu came and Meo and His friend came so we were all playing cards and the serenades game. Haha fun fun. By night we had to clean up early to get out on time but Ivy had to go home and shower before the party so Dung, Jason D, Meo, and his friend stayed at teahouse with me for the rest of the night and helped out. Dung mopped while Jason took out the trash with me. Free service yo :D clean clean clean closed! Hieu came to pick me up and we all headed to Tu’s house for the party. We came early so they ate first and got the stuff ready for later on. People came, ate, waited for more people. Then finally they turned on the music and began to grill more food and drank. Shots were being passed out, cheers to the birthday boy. Too much Grey Goose. Party party, idk what time I left but haha as we left Dat and Hieu climbed into the car to help us get out of the neighborhood but both niggas were drunk and so was I so we were yelling all over the place. Finally we dropped em off somewhere random but thank gah Dung followed to take em back to the party. Ivy and I headed home and man she didnt drink alcohol but a lot of monster so sugar rush haha she was so loud and I was loud so we were just all hyped in the car. Got home, showereed, and knocked the fuck out.
A night like that every week would be badass. We’ll see whatsup with next weekend, right? (: Fucken school tomorroww, agh. Not ready whatsoever.