Back to school tomorrow ]: I haven’t even done any homework or study for the stupid Chemistry test that I know I’ma fail already. Aghh, I hate speech class. It’s so boringg. I still have this massive headache and drained body from last night. What a crazy night. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEO! You the big TWO THREE now but look much younger so don’t worry (: Here’s how Saturday went down:
Woke up at damn 7 in the morning for the school car wash at 8. Rode with Sandybfff. When we got there, we held the signs off Richmondd cause the car wash was at Chickfila so we stood and tried to get cars washed. Kimberly later came and we all talked to the ppl at the stoplights and got 60$ worth of donations :D Left at 12 then headed to work
Work work work. Hieu and couple friends stopped by and left to get ready for the party. I wasn’t sure of going or not cause my dad was back in town so it was likely I wasn’t going. So worked til 8 then called my dad and asked. Found out he was wasted with his friends from outta town and didnt care so hell yess, parrty time for me too (:
9 o’clock, was suppose to close but damn customers kept coming in so rushed to clean and finish by 9:30. Left Teahouse and headed back to Ivy’s house so she could get her clothes to sleep over and for us to change for the party. Got there, got ready quick, grabbed clothes, and headed to the party. Stopped by Kroger to get some drinks and ice. Got to the party around 10:30. Everyone was eating and such so ate a bit. After awhile they pulled out the liquorr and poured em in little cups for Vu’s, Meo, Birthday toast. Thats when the drinking started. We raised up our cups and WOOTT chugged. Ivy couldnt drink so she gave me hers >.> Rest of the night partied, ate, and drank a lott. Everyone was chugging and going crazy. Birthday boy was fucked up. LOL. Later pined! :D Liquor and MJ<3 shitt after that, I was fcken gonee. Hieu took me home, and took care of me while Ivy and Dung followed behind us. Threw up a bit. Got home and they had to wait awhile for me to sober upp. Ivy prayed I’d be okay haha, so we went in and went straight to my room. I got my clothes and tried to walk straight to shower. Threw up more. Almost passed out D: Shower shower shower than fcken knocked out in my bed. I don’t even remember what time I came home. Massive hangover.
Overall, my weekend was a blast and again Happy Birthday Meo, we all had fun<3
What a day! :D I was actually fully occupied and had funn.
After school, I went out to eat with Kimberly, Nancy, Wang, and Moises at gally. Saw this CUTEE asian guy! WOOOTT. Haha anywhoo, ate then went to help Kim get a dress, bought new sandals. We then went to drop off Kim at school to pick up Ernest. Headed downtown to get school applications from HISA for us and dropped off Ernest at the metro place. Nancy and I got lost all over the place trying to find our way back to the school HISA. Downtown is so confusing, haha. We finally found our way and picked up Nancys friends. I then drove backk to Galleria and met up Jason to go shoppingg. Walked around, bought some stuff, and Jason ended up spending more than me LOL. After that I went home and went out to eat and Taphouse. Now heree being lazyy. Pretty happy dayy.
It’s not that easy to win over a girl’s heart. You can’t just look into her eyes and say ‘I love you’ and think she’ll instantly fall in love with you. You have to get to know her and show that you love her just the way she is. You have to be able to handle her when she’s mad, comfort her when she’s sad, and leave her be when she’s feeling independent. You don’t have to buy her the most expensive gifts all the time; as long as you mean everything you say and keep all the promises you make, you’ll be okay. So don’t rush things, take your time. And when you finally do tell her that you love her, make sure you truly mean it. Because chances are she needs another broken heart like you need a hole in the head.
I'm strong on the surface, not all the way through
It’s completely over, it’s completely done with. I held on for so long, I kept thinking maybe things would be different sooner or later but I guess everything happens for a reason. I wanted you to fight for me, I wanted you to prove to me your love, show me your affections. Not just trying to win me over by words, words are nothing with no action behind it. My friends ask why I let you put me through so much. My friends ask why I still want you back when you just hurt me. I ask myself that too. What makes me want to be with you so bad? I think I’ve become so used to having you in my life, having you by me 24/7. It just makes it that harder to let go, to know I have none anymore. Then again, it’s always better to fly solo, that way none can hurt you. You were a big part of my life. Even though in that short amount of time, we created so much memories. Memories that won’t erase. I’ll remember that smile you brought me and the little happiness in that time being. I’m ready to let this all go. I’m ready to let you go. It’ll hurt, it’ll be hard, it’ll tear me apart, but thats the best for both of us. I should have went with my instincts from the beginning, but again I took the chance that I told myself I wouldn’t. My instincts never let me down so I should learn from em, hmm? I ask myself was I not good enough? Pretty enough? What made you want to find better, what made you treat me the way you did. So many questions run through my mind but one answer is that we’ll never work out, no matter how much I wish it would. Time will heal. I’ve had my share of heartache, and each time I grow more scared of love. Love can make you or break you and slowly, its breaking me inch by inch..
He done let me down a again Thats odd Always hurting me He dont never stop Must be something wrong with me Im lost Cause I cant quit letting him in my heart How many times am I gonna let him apologize Before I realize That he aint worth it, no How many times he gone light me before I blow This is critical Here I go
“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up.”—Neil Gaiman (The Kindly Ones) (via quote-book)
“At some point you will realize that you have done too much for someone or something, that the only next possible step to do is to stop. Leave them alone. Walk away. It’s not like you’re giving up, and it’s not like you shouldn’t try. It’s just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation. What is truly yours would eventually be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be.”—(via nikkioh) (via tinatumblr) (via themorninglight) (via followandreblog) (via pressao) (via ionescu) (via hathuyanna)
“A heart is a fragile thing, that’s why we protect them so vigorously, give them away so rarely, and why it means so much when we do. Some hearts are more fragile than others, purer somehow. Like crystal in a world of glass. Even the way they shatter is beautiful.”—John E. Pogue (via herbeatingheart) (via quote-book)
"Tell them all I know now Shout it from the roof top Write it on the sky love All we had is gone now Tell them I was happy And my heart is broken All my scars are open Tell them what I hoped would be Impossible, impossible Impossible, impossible
Falling out of love is hard Falling for betrayal is worst Broken trust and broken hearts I know, I know Thinking all you need is there Building faith on love is worst Empty promises will wear I know (i know) And know when all is gone There is nothing to say And if you’re done with embarrassing me On your own you can go ahead tell them”
I want a boy who will tell me when I’m being stupid. Who won’t baby me with his words. A boy who will still give time to his friends. A boy who will tell me ‘No’. He will watch stupid movies with me, but makes me watch his favorites also. A boy who’s willing to drop everything to be with me, but knows when to let it be. A boy who will know he’s important to me, but won’t mind when I change my plans to help someone out. I want a boy who’s enjoyable to look at, he doesn’t have to be gorgeous. I just want someone who I can pay attention to. A boy who will randomly bring me food, cause he knows I love to eat. A boy who can make jokes about me, a boy that I can laugh with. Someone who wont mind when I even embarrass myself. A boy who will buy me something, something I would actually want, none of that jewelry crap. Someone who doesn’t do everything I ask but when it comes to something important I can count on him to be there. Someone who I don’t feel threatened by. A boy who has other friends that are girls, but I can trust him with them. A boy who will know when to leave me alone when II have my stupid fits. A boy who I can just sit with. I don’t need the whole fairytale deal; I just want to feel comfortable.
That one feeling that we all dread. The feeling in our chest like somethings missing or somethings on our chest that we just want to get rid of? Whether it’d be from heartbreak or knowing the one you love doesn’t love you back or even anything else that leaves you worried when you can’t do anything about it. Yeah, I know you’ve felt it at least once. Well I hate it
if u had a chance to start over like go back in time and re-do your whole life would u do anything differently but keep this in my mind u might lose people that mean alot to you
Mmm.. I mean some parts I would want to re-do to make the better choice but in the end, my decisions have lead me to where I am now and I learned from the past. I also wouldnt want to lose the friends I have in my life now.
I don’t know what to think. I don’t know what to do. It’s over, it’s done with. I need to let go, I need to. Why does my heart say one thing but my mind tell me to do the complete opposite. It’s like I’m stuck in between. Neither decisions get me the happiness I want. Its either be with you and have doubt, or be without and miss you. I think this time I should follow my instincts and stick with it..
“‘I love you’ hardly means anything anymore. We think wants are needs. Forever isn’t as long as we initially believe it is. Love isn’t as strong as it should be. Sacrifice is a joke. Promises are only there to be broken.”—